This is depressing to think about, I can’t even sleep while it’s on my mind.
I say I love him, we met in a different way.. We fall asleep on one another on the phone.. I’m willing to go to his country for him, I tell him I love him with all my heart
What more can I do to make him move and take a step forward
I can’t live without him, it’s hard to imagine life.. without him in it - it just hurts too much ..
But I can’t keep dreaming like this and hoping? I want the whole entire real thing. I can’t hang on to ifs and buts and maybes
But I can’t let him go.. So will I forever hang on to him? Should I?
Life is so unexpected.. It’s scary to even think of facing it all on your own..